home alone

Hello dear friends,
Yes you guessed it I am in my next zippy. My quiet self can't stand blogging. i am amazed I even get on the computer at all but I do love emailing my friends. i love seeing and contacting my friends in all my moods. My latest news is I am getting three new stained glass windows for my home two more either side of the front door in the lounge and bedroom and one in the kitchen. i am so spoiled and so thrilled.
I am enjoying my second course with Brave Girls now that i am in zippy and have started a dream box of all my goals and dreams which i love when I am in zippy. will be interested to see what I do in quiet mode.
I gave my friend a new scarf and she is wearing it to New york. i am thrilled to be part of it all
lots of love from susan in australia

Great day

Dear friends, what a great day I am having. one of those days full of joy. My greatest joy is meeting people and giving love and care to them and seeing them light up. I am full of energy today and wearing my purple crystal necklace and empowering clothes. I feel so centered and grounded. Just bought my new yoga outfits and some jewelery from my dear jeweler to go with the outfits. I have been to the local shops and love the way I know most of them by their name. I owe my name recall to my dear departed friend and coworker Renton. Bless you Renton. what great days I had at Moorabbin TAFE. Time for me to write some loving thoughts about my dad who has been on my mind today
lots of love from susan in australia

Silence vs overload

Dear friends,
read another blog entry about silence and overload which is me with my quiet time and then my zippy time with my rapid cycling bipolar.
I was doing really well posting discussions but went from daily to every second day to weekly to.........
It is OK my blog has rarely been consistent. I am consistent in some things but not others. I am consistent with my daily emailing but not daily blogging.
what are you consistent with?
lots of love from susan in australia

Parades

Dear friends,
we have street parades here for celebrations like Mardi gras and also war memorial parades. I used to go to them but not now. do you go to parades. what parades do you have near where you live? Do you watch them on TV?
lots of love from susan in australia

mobile phones

Dear friends,
I only use my mobile phone to text a couple of friends each day and I keep it in the car for emergencies. I don't want to be available 24/7. How do you use your mobile? Are you available 24/7 as are some of my friends? lots of love from susan in australia

Living in fear

Dear friends,
It occurred to me with my last post that i am living a huge part of my life in fear...fear of my mum dying, fear of illness, fear of my home situation changing, fear of loss of friends, fear of being morbidly obese....fear....fear....fear.....It never occurred to me that it is this bad until today. WHAT IS THERE TO BE AFRAID OF RIGHT NOW? NOTHING. I have to start really living in the now and out of fear.
Lots of love from susan in australia

Scared of future

Dear friends,
I have a lovely sunny library that is central to my life here at home. it suddenly occurred to me yesterday when neighbours were renovating a garage on the property that they could build a two storey unit and block my sunshine. I keep promising myself to stay in the now and it isn't happening but my mind keeps thinking what will I do if it happens. Mostly I get scared of life presenting me with something I can't cope with. My mental illness has given me so many difficult challenges so far. Only I can help myself out of this.
lots of love from susan in australia