Friday, April 22, 2011

Living in fear

Dear friends,
It occurred to me with my last post that i am living a huge part of my life in fear...fear of my mum dying, fear of illness, fear of my home situation changing, fear of loss of friends, fear of being morbidly obese....fear....fear....fear.....It never occurred to me that it is this bad until today. WHAT IS THERE TO BE AFRAID OF RIGHT NOW? NOTHING. I have to start really living in the now and out of fear.
Lots of love from susan in australia

Scared of future

Dear friends,
I have a lovely sunny library that is central to my life here at home. it suddenly occurred to me yesterday when neighbours were renovating a garage on the property that they could build a two storey unit and block my sunshine. I keep promising myself to stay in the now and it isn't happening but my mind keeps thinking what will I do if it happens. Mostly I get scared of life presenting me with something I can't cope with. My mental illness has given me so many difficult challenges so far. Only I can help myself out of this.
lots of love from susan in australia

Saturday, April 16, 2011


Dear friends,
My daily blogging got farther and farther apart and am not doing it now and don't feel inclined to start again at present. it has run its course again.
I have left my personal trainer and still only able to do 15 minute walk with my back being out. my masseuse is still sick and I am going back to old masseuse next month.
Life on the computer has changed and rarely comment on CCS now. I am still processing these changes.
Time for my last email and shower and off for my walk.
had a misunderstanding with a friend i normally see on a sunday. it is strange the directions life takes.
some days i am scared........
lots of love from susan in australia

Tuesday, April 5, 2011


dear friends,
i have bubble baths, cook nice meals, phone my mum or friends to nurture myself. what do you do to nurture yourself?
lots of love from susan in australia

Saturday, April 2, 2011

e-books and pdfs

Dear friends,
I download lots of free e-books and pdfs on all sorts of subjects I enjoy. I love that they are free and learn so much from them. DO you get free e-books or pdfs? What subjects do you enjoy?
lots of love from susan in australia